I wrote 10 blog posts in my meditation

If you’ve given up on meditation, you likely didn’t think you were good at or you didn’t think it was helping you. Your judgements about meditation and what it should do are the most probable challenge.

When you see a woman sitting in lotus pose all blissed out, you may wonder if you’re doing something wrong. Likely, you haven’t accepted the nature of the mind. Stillness isn’t something we can hold onto on demand. With practice, we know the path of finding stillness but that doesn’t mean we can’t be thrown off course, even after years of practice.

This morning, I sat in meditation a bit later than usual. My mind was already geared towards my day and my work. I was bursting with many creative ideas. How exciting! The force that wanted to go create wasn’t thrilled with being pulled back into the present moment.

I kept watching the ‘doer’ within me run forward and I had to effort to pull her back to the present. Today was harder than usual for me. My inner doer didn’t surrender easily.

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In the past, I might have concluded that such a surge of creative energy should take precedence over stillness. I may have gotten up from my meditation to write down some of my ideas. Today I wasn’t fooled by that old trick. Being productive is an excellent escape from being present.

So, I just accepted that my mind was busy and kept returning to the present. I never arrived at the depth of stillness I can access at other times, but I still value the time I spent meditating. Meditation gives me a lens into how I’m really doing. It’s clear that my system is running a bit too fast. From experience, I know that I’ll feel better if I consciously slow myself down. Otherwise, I’m bound to work too intensely and then crash. That knowing is worth a lot!

What are you sitting with in your practice today? Don’t have a meditation practice? Message me and I’ll send you a great practice to get your started.